Who Will Be Looking Back at You in the Mirror after 8/28?
This essay was originally dispatched to my Inner Circle on August 26th.
As I write this, we’re all probably still reeling from the news of Dolly Parton and Tim Curry leaving us as well as the approximately 95 victims of the devasting flash flood in Nepal. Just the other day one of my clients asked me about dying during an eclipse — as in does it happen more easily and often? While I don’t have the statistics to give a definitive answer to this to corroborate real life evidence with astrological phenomenon, energetically one of the explanations is that eclipses open a portal to the spiritual realm and the veil remains thin between the eclipse dyad.
Even if one doesn’t cease their material existence entirely, a version of us that we can never return to does gets left behind on the battlefield of an 18 month eclipse cycle — which, in and of itself, is both the beginning and end of an 18 year epoch. Eclipse cycles are simply put the liminal space between the start and finish of a rite de passage.
18 years ago you emerged from some kind of permanent change to your identity — one that, without being able to look at your chart specifically — required that you put away “adolescence” (Virgo) and become a “gateway” (Pisces) for channeling something you weren’t entirely in control of into this world. That might’ve been a marriage, business, child, body of work, etc. The north node (aka Rahu) gives you your heart’s deepest desire in the part of the chart it traverses in exchange for some sacrifice in the sign and house overlaid by Virgo. THEN you spend 18 years finding out if your wish — or rather the who YOU wished to be — actually is you.
Since September 2024, that “you” has been stress tested under extraordinary circumstances — both in your personal life and in the world at large. What background systems you’ve been using to organize your life became obsolete? They used to be so efficient and then BOOM! You realized that they were your sources of dis-ease. You realized that they were vehicles for over functioning in order to maintain a sense of self that you, 18 years ago, craved to embody.
What meaning and sense of connection and magic fell short? We’ve all been there at some point — everything is just the way it always was but inexplicably started to feel hollow and you’re watching yourself going through the motions that you know usually inspire a certain sensation.
Now, it isn’t all doom and gloom. If, in the past 18 years, you discovered, YES! This is me! Welcome to another 18 years of leveling up that identity and deepening your experience and understanding of it with having integrated or exfoliated some excess baggage that was holding you down from going full throttle.
But, if you’re like Jessica Chastain’s character Maya at the end of Zero Dark Thirty, and you’ve accomplished the mission but now you don’t know what’s next, GIRL! Yeah, have your cry. Bury yourself in your weighted blanket. Go break some shit and rage into the wind.
Just remember that you are a damn Phoenix. Eclipses are meant to kill off the false identities, the attachment to desire, the shadow that blocks the divine spark from shining out into the world and calling forth the light of others in the dark night. Sure, are you going to find yourself standing in a pile of rubble? Maybe. Will you wake up to happily ever after? Perhaps. Could you wake up on August 28th (or maybe even a month from now since eclipses do have a month before and month after wake) and not recognize the face in the mirror or the world around you? Highly likely.
Will you need to recalibrate your coherence so that you use these lessons to more fully understand what your deepest, driving desire is in the areas of your life that have been effected? Does that involve aligning your thoughts and actions so that as you repeat them they coalesce to a cohesive sense of self? Yes. And the astrology for the next six months is here to support you in that journey.
YOU GOT THIS! I know you do … and don’t forget. We’re in this together.
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